On the Other Side of Suicide

On the other side of suicide
Will I taste the tears I couldn't cry?
Will I realize all my fears were lies?
Will I find reasons to stay alive?

On the other side of suicide
Is there anything to make me feel?
Is there something safer, something real?
Or does my pain go deeper still--
Go beyond the power of a pill

On the other side of suicide
Might I see God there with my eyes?
Might I sleep in paradise?
Or might I drown in holy fire?

Will there be anyone to share my night?
Will there be demons left to fight?
Would anyone read the words I write
On the other side of suicide?