Not insane, just different

He greeted me awkwardly. I felt sad for him knowing that he was having a hard time, but at the same time it really pissed me off.
I wasn't any different from the girl he had hugged just a few weeks ago, now was I?
He came a little closer but yet kept some distance between us.
And it hurt.
I had changed in his eyes..
"So how are you?"
He didn't dare to look me in the eyes and saw the stupidity of his question.
"I'm sorry. That's-that's a stupid thing to ask...It's just..this whole thing..It's kinda freaking me out."
I could feel the anger grow inside of me and had to force myself to stay calm.
"I'm only here because I don't fit in the perfect image that you pictured of me before we even engaged"
My voice was cold and so were my eyes.
"You're here because you're insane." he said simply without any regret.
"Just because I'm different, doesn't mean I'm insane. You people seem to have forgotten the difference between being mentally ill and being different."
The only answer I got was silence and I noticed the pain in his eyes.
He didn't believe me.
"Do I look insane to you?"
The clock was slowly ticking away our time.
"The tests said that you are-"
"Yeah, I know what the tests said. They only told me a hundred times before!"
I sighed deeply and stared at the dark circles under his eyes.
"Then why can't you just go along with that?"
His words left ugly scars in my heart.
"Because I don't belong here. Because my brains are absolutely healthy!" I said, quite uncertain of myself.
What if they were right? What if I really was insane?
I softly shook my head and got mad at him for not believing me.
"You're supposed to be at my side! And to be there for me 'till death do us part!! Why can't you just believe me?!"
He didn't reply nor looked at me. The anger took a hold of me.
"Look into my eyes!!!"
He looked up but as soon as his eyes crossed mine he started to cry.
"I can't! I can't help you anymore! I can't do this!!"
He stood up, cursed at the wall, kicked and hit everything that was close to him and tried to stop the tears...
And failed.
"You pushed me away, Ursela. You didn't allow me to be at your side. And now..I don't even know you anymore."
He turned around and looked at me. The pain had drawn new lines in his face and made him look older.
I let my tears flow freely.
"Is that why you locked me away?"
Even though the tears blurred my vision I could still see the anger in his eyes.
"You agreed with me to come here, so don't you dare go there!!"
"To prove to you that there is nothing wrong with me!" I yelled upset.
He sat down in the chair and rested his head in his hands.
"The tests showed something else.."
I laughed without joy.
"Tests can be wrong. Who decides who's sane or pathetic anyway? For all I know everyone is insane. Some people just hide it better."
He couldn't have missed the bitterness in my voice.
"I'm sorry Urs," he said while heading for the door,"But there's nothing I can do to help you anymore. You're just gonna have to fight this on your own."
He looked at me one last time with regret in his eyes and walked away.

The guy carried on with his life and tried to leave it all behind, but her words stayed with him 'till his death.
"Not insane, just different."

Author's Note

okay so this is my first English story and I could really use some constructive criticism..Just be totally honest with me and tell me what you would change..It would be highly appreciated ^^

Reviews

[Fuzzy_Poluzah]

:P awesome read, great words and flow. I could really feel the anger and vague guilt in every word. but i think u meant to say "till death do us part" not till death us part. But other than that amazing work ;)

[LoopyLoo]

Great story. :-)

[Murtuza]

Wow, this is such a powerful story! I give you my standing ovation! It's very nice for a first. I'm being totally honest when I say that you've captured the tension very well between the two people and her longing of being accepted by him, so sad. Well-written and job well-done XD