Maybe

Feels like I'm the cause of my unhappiness, I feel like its me...

Maybe it is me, Maybe I am the problem.

Maybe I infect everything and everyone I touch, maybe that's the reason I get discarded every time.

Maybe it's my fault everyone who seemed goodhearted at first became s****y to me.

I always see them as something to me but it's never been likewise, they are always more important to me than I am to them.  I always give out so much of myself but they give nothing back to replace those lost parts. I don't feel like being around anyone, I don't feel like talking to anyone anymore because what if I contaminate with whatever is wrong with me and they turn into a bad person to me.

It has to be me because in the beginning they were so nice and everyone knows them as a good person but they shitted on me.

 Maybe it's my fault they decide to do these stupid things to me and I don't call it out because I don't want to lose them.

Maybe I'm just an easy target, I have nothing to lose anymore, I have nothing left in my heart, mind and soul to give out to more people.

I love with everything while completely losing myself in the process.

Maybe it's my fault I feel so empty and used.

it's always the same cycle over and over again

Maybe just maybe if I wasn't me i’ll be happy…?

Maybe it's me I'm the problem.

right?