Never Have I Ever

just a rebound to him

Never have I ever felt so disregarded

Never have I ever felt so used and led on

Never have I ever felt so irrelevant and unimportant in a story

I had exceptionally high standards for you 

I had cared so much I blamed myself for our end

I had adored you so much rather than adoring myself

You made me consume your lies and deceit

You made me feel desired then not in such a temporary amount of time

You made me get under the impression of it was just us but it was all about her

It felt as if you never really concerned yourself with me

It felt as if you visualized me to be her but I am not her, I am me…. so why her and not me

It felt as if you had planned this while my heart is a game to you and your insensitivity

We planned our lives and futures and shared our goals with one another

We planned our happiness with each other but you discarded all of it in merely a second

We planned our- NO you planned our end right from the start

Oh how stupid I looked to think i was accepted for me

Oh how witless and dull-witted of me to ignore the signs because I wanted to feel happy

Oh how idiotic of me to think the words you said to me were for me and not the person you imagined while looking at me

Wanted to feel joy even though it was just for a little amount of time

Wanted to stay even though deep down I knew the truth and turned a blind eye to it

Wanted to still feel your fake comfort and counterfeit affection because to me to was all real

Never have I ever felt so irrelevant and unimportant in our story………but to each their own.

Author's Note

Some people have no sympathy and will use you like you don't even matter.

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[D. Mansfield]

Love, especially the giving of one's heart to another, is a very dangerous thing that we all disregard at times in our life. And it H U R T S so much