Is it really love

My heart poured out

I think too much about you but never about my well being.

I offer too much to you but not for a moment got an adequate amount from you.

I trust too much but only I'm trusted because you know I’m attached and won't depart from you.

Is it really love if I feel my heart, mind and soul disintegrated at the mention of your name.

Is it really love if I let my emotions be subject to your every action and movement.

Is it really love if I accepted you back everytime you disregarded me and took me for granted.

Can we go back to before I had an encounter with you.

Can we go back to before I let myself get drowned in the perception of you.

Can we go back to before I fell for your manipulation and acts of toxic masculinity.

There's so many times I cried both loudly and silently because of your emotional exploitation.

There's so many times I thought about departing from your hold but was too obsessed to dare.

There's so many times I perceive your dishonesty and deception yet I acted ignorant so you’d stay longer.

Did I really love you or just the character I envisioned of you in my mind

Did I really love you or just craved emotional comfort even though you gave not the slightest bit

Did I really love you or just the factuality that you spoke to me when no one else did

No one else felt the need to be accustomed with my heart

No one else felt the impulse to give my growing passion a matching reflection

No one else felt the demand to be the source of my distress and complications but you.

And everyday feels like those days you were still in my life. Unpleasant.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

The way in which you've written is extraordinary, tragic yet - near defiant. Shows emotions and thoughts with candour, without apologies, no apparent tears yet.. you are so clearly deep in a very personal tragedy. Your poem is written in such a way it will stay a while with me. Perhaps sharing will give you some comfort. I hope so.

'Did I really love you or just the character I envisioned of you in my mind' Oh my, that must have hurt, It does when read.

[Arielle.ambilichu]

Thank u so much, I love the fact that other people can understand what I feel through my words and can appreciate it

[emmajoygreen]

Words are special, when someone bothers to offer a small part of self by writing, surely tis friendly and polite to spare time to read the gift of words, Arielle. Enjoy the week ahead, keep safe, take care.

[Arielle.ambilichu]

Have a good week too🫶🏾🫶🏾

[Jc]

Your poem spoke to my heart, unfortunately you'll have to experience pain like this in life. Though its quite unfair, through the trials and tribulations of this, you'll be able to see who's good and or bad for you.

[Arielle.ambilichu]

Thank u alott, it really is unfair but it’s life.

[Arielle.ambilichu]

A huge percentage of people get to feel like this because of the influence others have on us, I had to speak my mind and heart.

[Alla Antsis]

Arielle, your work is deep and honest, full of emotions, passion and grief! That is exactly what the poem purpose to pour your heart out...Love it! Please keep at it. I would love to see more of you. Thank you for sharing

[Arielle.ambilichu]

thank you smmmm