Atonement

I am the atonement for your mistakes. I live for others, to make sure they get everything, because you gave me nothing.

 Oh, my twisted family.

It hurts, it burns, it makes me want to quit,

To give it all away. But I can't leave them.

My reasons for living,

I'd torture

For their happiness.

Kill

Anyone who gives them pain.

No sibling rivalry here. Hardly,

For they're not even mine.

I can't claim them. Because

You won't claim me.

I know the truth, you know. 

I sometimes even think you know

I do. But you still won't

Admit. 

How could one so promising have made such

A mistake.

Not you, no, never you.

The child prodigy. So

You threw me away, but kept me

Just within reach. Close enough to

Hurt

But a decade apart.

Your "adopted" little sis.

I loved you,

Idolized you. Wanted

To grow up and be you. How

Wrong that feels now.

Did you realize?

You were my hero. But

I was the villain, wasn't I?

The unwanted child who

Threatened your dreams.

I look at them, and my heart wants

To burst. Now you have your domestic dream:

Perfect husband, perfect house, perfect kids, perfect job.

I should be jealous, itching to

Hate

The ones deserving of my

Uncherished place. I won't. They are

The essence of my world.

Don't you dare let them go.

I've found my place. I should be

Eons away, forgetting the mess you made of

My life.

I can't. I know now why I was born.

I live for them, not thanks to you. I am the

Atonement

For your mistakes.

I'm here:

To make sure they get everything,

Because you gave me nothing.

Reviews

[amailleia]

Woah...this is a very emotional piece. It reminds me of a book I read recently-very well written, easy to follow story. All in all, great job!