Midnight

Sometimes right before I’m about to fall asleep I get this odd feeling

An overwhelming empty feeling

A feeling of pure loneliness

a void that no one could fulfill

I imagine myself being spooned by a handsome figure

I feel protected

I feel safe

Until I realize that I don’t know who that person is

I’m left sitting there

Trying to solve the mystery of the shadowy figure

He speaks to me

comforting me

Telling me everything is going to be okay

I vision us dancing in an elegant ballroom

and me in a big purple gown

And I'm still a faceless shadow

In the day I search for him

Finding him in the boys I meet

When I seemed to discover his true identity

He becomes cruel

And I start again

I wonder if I will ever find him

Until the sun goes down

And I see him again

In the moon

In the night sky

The stars

I call out to him

Wishing he will find me

But when I wake up

He is gone again

When he is with me

I am everlasting

Hours are days

And dreams are forever

He has always been there comforting me

listening to my every thought

He has always been there for me

He is a part of me

My overwhelming loneliness

Author's Note

this is the first poem I've written in a long time.