How I Felt

Please oh please just kill me now
my lifes screwed up... i know... but how?
when all i know is a bruise and a belt...
think and try to feel how i felt...
he hit me once... twice... and then again
and really all i needed was a friend...
but abuse doesnt just come in the form of pain...
No, when tears turn to rain, and the presence of your flame destroys my brain...
you'll see soon that lifes bigger than you think...
my tears will destroy your bravery, your power will shrink...
so think back to the days,
when all i knew was a bruise and a belt...
think about how i felt.