My God

When you knock, ask to see God — none of the servants. - Thoreau

Satan came for me.

He wouldn't leave until he had stripped me to the core.

Telling me I was no good.

Not worthy.

Attacking me with all the sins I had ever done.

Even those I would do.

I begged and pleaded and still he would not go.

Leaving me alone in life's void.

With doubt in my soul and brokenness in my heart.

Then I remembered my canteen.

The canteen of truth and love.

I remembered cradling my newborn children in my arms at the hospital.

Embracing them proudly and giving thanks.

Bringing my wife flowers after she'd given birth.

Staying up all night cradling them in my arms when they were sick.

Going to work the next morning exhausted to keep a roof over their heads and food on the table.

Putting money aside for them so that they could go to college one day.

I remembered teaching them how to throw a ball. 

Just being there to talk and answer their questions.

Attending their sports games and school events and cheering them on.

Going faithfully to the shore and deeply into the woods to explore creation.

Taking them with me to church.

Teaching them how to kneel and pray.

I guess Satan was right.

I'm not worthy.

I'm weak and a sinner.

That's why I have ...

... my God ...

Author's Note

"Bribed with a little sunlight and a few prismatic tints, we bless our Maker, and stave off his wrath with hymns." - Thoreau

Reviews

[Manasa.L]

Life is unpredictable. We never know what's ahead. All that we can do is keep doing our job,our duty on this our very own planet Earth. God has made us all, but none of us are same. We have differences just like the fingers on our hands. Don't be upset with life because it's the Karma and we are having the fruit of it. Let's live the life to the fullest and positively. You deserve it. Everyone does. So have hope and be happy.

[Pete]

excellent thoughts. we must keep fighting the good fight no matter what life throws at us. thank you Manasa ... :)

[Manasa.L]

You are welcome

[Giulia King]

I'm actually listening to Leonard Cohen - You want it darker as I'm reading this poem and the darkness of the song fits perfectly with this poem. Love your writing!!

[Pete]

hi Giulia! how great to hear from you. great stuff that Leonard Cohen - You Want It Darker, listening to it now as i type this. never heard it before, thanks for mentioning. so glad you got something out of this. thanks for stopping in and all my best to you sis ... :)

[R.J Calzonetti (Siniste..]

We are all human. There is no such thing as perfection. Don’t count yourself out just yet. I’m glad you can appreciate the love that you have earned. As with your poetry, you deserve it.

[Pete]

yes, we all want to be loved in this wretched world in spite of ourselves. thanks for weighing in, your thoughts are appreciated ... :)