decite and his friend pain

 

why do i feel so alone

you say you love me but

i feel so lost

im alone again tonight

 

my heart sinks in sorrow at

the calls i never recieve

i wait and never sleep

wishing to hear your voice

 so soothing and at peace

 

 

i miss your voice

while you sing me to sleep

each night was bliss

in the beginning

 

now all has changed

i wish for you to hear my prayers

i wish you to know my heart

with you i feel we are

drifting apart

 

so much has happended

in this short time

and yet my trust for you

as up and flown

 

there are so many things

i still dont yet know

i feel left out

i feel abandoned

 

i feel as if i'm not enought

for you

even thou im your

 soon to be bride

 

i feel as if i should

 just go and hide

my heart is breaking now

because of your promises un-kept

 

i feel as if im a lonely rat

trapped on this sinking ship 

i dont know what to do

i dont know how to feel

 

my confusion is

starting to make me ill

i hate being this way

and i want to change

 

but i can't without your help

im starting to feel deranged

i am your weight that hangs

around your neck

 

if you would cut me lose

you shall be free again

to live as you wish

and do what you want

 

i will still love you in whatever

you decide

but i can not handle

this decite or these lies