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I wish for a lot of things…

I wish that you would be okay after all of this, I also wish that you will move on…I’m sorry I couldn’t hold on for just a little bit longer…

    It was my time to go, but I wish there will be no anger, for death is natural. I wish that you will realize that I am no longer in pain.

But you won’t.

You never do, you are stubborn, just like mom. There is nothing wrong with that, you just have a strong head on your shoulders, figuratively speaking…

I watch you every day, my place now is in this hospital where I have died. You are here now too, they have locked you up.

    I wish I could have been there, that night you dragged that blade against your wrists and tried to hang yourself in the garage…I would have stopped you, as sick as I was, there was no way I was going to let you die like that.

As much as I wanted to save you, I couldn’t. Besides, it wasn’t your time to go, but know that you are not being punished for hurting yourself, you are simply being helped.

I would help you if I could, but now isn’t the time. You won’t believe I am real…I am, I have never left, Ethan…

 

I can’t leave…