aging

i don't believe we're ever fully prepared

being digested
into quicksand
  completely aware
  that your younger
  self will be lost
  forever
is the way it
feels

your insides
seem to have sprung a leak
  letting irreplaceable life juices
  flow through invisible cracks
  spilling out into the universe
and you're left feeling less
as you feel it
go

and then
you begin
to notice and to
comprehend the
change in seasons

through some new
and insightful
anxiety
you now witness
chicago's autumn leaves
disappearing into the
barrenness of its
winter landscape

and through a
descending shadow of
awareness
you realize that your
disinterest in the world
comes well before
midnight
when you normally slip
into bed

your days no
longer offer significant
hours of alive living
nor even reasonable
hours of restful
sleep

so you're mired
in the hopelessness
of no do-overs

as you now
admit to yourself
that time has gone
way too fast
and understanding
has arrived
way too late

 

Reviews

[Priscilla Sayers]

Never too late. Enjoy aging... It is where wisdom lies, where wisdom is given from one generation to another. Time to share it. Do not despair.
Great write. Can't wait to read more.
Always have my 2 cents.
keep bringing on the flow. i dig it.

[Robbie~xoxo~]

Nicely done! I can truly relate! This piece speaks to a generation that will come to the realize this epiphany, sooner than expected.

[Seshat Nidaba]

That's pretty graphic and scary, although I think the older people get the less they fear it and feel uncomfortable with their mortality....

Nice piece!

[Fabian G. Franklin]

I love this for many reasons and I can easily relate to the message. Very good writing.

[...]

. so true ... so accurate ... so vivid ... so perceptive ... that last stanza is particularly profound ... brilliantly written ...