Wondering Dreams

when i was younger I always wanted a family. I wrote my fantasies and dreamed...

When i was younger, I used to say "I want a baby and a husband that loves me!"

I was so oblivious and young, i couldn't say happy though. I never let that dream go, don't think i ever can for hope is always at my door. I used to believe everything would be okay, i would grow up and be successful in life. i would find the perfect boy and we would fall in love, get married and live happily ever after. 

It was a dream, a dream that still is nestled close to my heart, my soul, a longing that never quits. i grew up a little and realized finding my guy wouldn't be easy, I was so quick to care, praying they would be there. I was young and let them have what they wanted, a sad child to dumb to realize, i was being used. And no one could tell me 'be careful" no one warned me of the dangers. I then dreamed I would be saved, by whom I never knew, but i would be safe again. From harm i ran. I cried so many times and a time came, i just stopped.

I couldn't care. I closed my heart to everyone, my family and even myself. I didn't want to fear, or love. I just wanted to be safe from harm. I waited, it never changed, had to do things the right way. got off my a*s and got outta there, found shelter elsewhere. I kept moving, looked back, i hadn't gone so far. I dreamed when i was young, to sprout wings and fly away, a land of beauty, and fairytales. i had such a vivid imagination, i wrote. I would always read them when i was sad, and close my eyes to the world around me to wondering dreams.

Reviews

[Samantha ~virginpoet]

I usually dont read story's but this drew me in and held me there well done

[Coyote Poetry]

Sweet dreams of youth. Where all things are perfect. The wish for the most of us. I like the way you told the tale of dreams. No weakness in the story. I like the ending to the excellent story.
Coyote