I feelA Story by Prokhor OzorninI feel I don't belong there, yet this is my world for now. I feel like I am a sinner and a saint - all in one. I feel I used to fall, only to rise higher after. I feel I don't need to repeat the mistakes of the forgotten past again. I feel I have recently passed through some trial... yet there are more awaiting me on the path. I feel like I have already experienced all the common pleasures other ones dream of - and found them worthless. I feel I have forgotten my true nature and lost my past in the labyrinths of lives. I feel like I was able to fly somehow, though I can't recall the time. I feel my road is of rare origin, yet it won't be easy. I feel many diamonds of the future path are still undiscovered. I feel my wish for transformation have triggered some fate threads, and I must prove my worth for the Universe. I feel the Universe is a constantly evolving, living being and we are all bound by some unseen force in it. I feel I must dive deeper inside me for the past to unfold. I feel I'm many-faced... so many personalities swirling inside me, constantly fighting for my attention. I am all them - and yet someone different. I feel I have awakened, yet partially. I won't exist as usual “me” when I will finally dare to open still closed eyes. I feel I could never awaken even like this, had I to listen to other people's “common sense”. I feel I know the major marks of my path, yet the details are still undetermined. I feel my goals are right, yet only for me. My own ego must be destroyed in my wake for a new essence to be born. I feel the happiness makes me lighter, yet still, I cannot soar. I feel I can't call any country as motherland and even Earth is not home. I feel I don't need to belong to any organized group folks, yet I could... just to have some fun examining them. I feel I could speak more languages, yet now bound to the two, with one sounding so familiar... Did I relearn one of those? I feel I could sometimes feel people's emotions flowing around me, unseen by others. I feel humans do not yet know the inner power they hold, for this knowledge could be dangerous. I feel the paths of all ones intertwine in a strange way and there are no random events. I feel we all have the creativity of some origin, yet many ones buried it to look sane. I feel some interesting events marking the future of this world are yet to come. I feel we all have to be better if we are to survive. I feel I will always be somewhat “out of touch” there, yet I can accept the laws most ones live with... just in case. I feel somewhat like a child now, yet my mind is of elder. I feel I will never stop seeking the wisdom, nor do I want to. I feel I could walk the different direction, yet finally, my destination would be the same. I feel I am still human on the surface - and that is for the better. I feel my path does never truly end, yet I am glad. I feel I am being guided, yet cannot see the guide. I feel I am not the only one who feels like this, yet those ones are few. I feel I could say more... yet this is sufficient. I feel I must keep silence... for now. 13.08.2009 © 2018 Prokhor Ozornin |
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Added on August 21, 2017 Last Updated on November 5, 2018 AuthorProkhor OzorninRussiaAboutMatters not whether I tell or write – my thoughts will pursue me.If these thoughts are useful to someone – they will become my wings. more..Writing
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