billboard for my misery

i try to look away

so i wouldnt have to see the scene

that is you with her.

there is no way to avoid the billboard for my misery.

the way you hold her close

is enough to make me hurt

somewhere deep beneath my skin.

you look at me and i can see

you know exactly what im thinking.

i can see the way you want to come to me.

she must see it too.

i can feel her eyes shred me down to sawdust.

does she know you still call me late at night

when no one would hear you tell me you still need me?

i doubt it.

i watch you brake my heart again

as you lean down to kiss her 

with eyes never leaving me

to watch your billboard for my misery