Stuck

 

They say your name is all powerful

It is Great and Changes everything

Well God I am saying Your Name!!!

I am weeping Your Name!!!

Screaming!! Your Name in despair and hopelessness

God!!! Jesus!!! My Father!!!

You see me!!! You hear me!!!

Crying out in Pain

I don’t know what to do

What to say

Where to go next

God I need you!!!

I Need You!!!

Like fish need water

I can’t survive

What am I doing wrong?

How can I change?

A wall was built

Getting larger day by day

I pile on each day but

Is it just me?

Words God, I need words!!!

My spirit cries out words and love

As my body sits in silence

The Closest to me have grown the furthest

They think I Don’t Care

They think I Don’t Love

I want to produce actions

But I can’t

God I can’t!!!

I Love! I Care! I Love! I Care!

But I still don’t know how

To Love and to Care

Trust my enemy, Push away my loved ones

Fear, Fear, Fear, Fear

Of nothing holds me back

I am Them, They are me but

We are Nothing

Alike

We’re touching

But our backs are towards each other

Think of leaving them

But You Want Me to save but I can’t

I Can’t God!!! I don’t know how

Teach me

How to Speak

There’s too many voices

I only need one

God!! God!! God!!

I’m lost!!

I stand and watch

As they walk and do

I disappoint you

I disappoint them

To just let them in Once

Into You!! Into Me!!

But I can’t!

As my tears fall, I conceal myself

Break the Wall!!!

Break the Wall!!!

I Can Take It No Longer!!!

God I Need You!!!

They Need You!!!