Repeated Sentence

The safety of the closet sickened by the smell of him

Tangled up in the hoodies I used to wind around my waist

Because it smelled like you

in the dark I close my eyes and hold my breath

There goes the mug I bought him

Down goes the dining room table

I told myself over and over...never again.

So I met a man with a gentle touch

For years I wrapped myself up in his arms

The smell of his clothes made me feel warm

And ten years later I found myself hiding again

Locked in the bathroom clinging to the shower curtain

Your body wash nauseating me while I sit and ask no one

Why?

He looked so in love in our wedding album

I am once again just a teen hiding in my boyfriend's closet

Wondering why it is so easy for men to say I love you

Then strike you down in the next breath

Reviews

[light and ashes]

Devastating point of view.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

parts of ex lovers we seem to never get rid of...maybe we just don't want to forget even when we say we do.
j.

[poison&kerosene]

It was easier to forget the past when I wasn’t repeating the same horror today. People are so complex and messy. Sometimes you think you know a person in and out then 10 years later you’re blindsided by rage. Life is messy. Love is messy.