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I don't like math. I never have been able to wrap my mind around the cold, concise logic of one solid answer. In school I cherished my English and history classes. I loved hearing stories of cruel dictators falling victim to their own humanity. I loved the tales of strong empires crumbling. I also enjoyed the stories of how one single human had the power to move mountains and change the course of history. Literature and poetry were always my favorite. From satire, to tragedies. I loved giving my opinion on things. Poetry slams sophomore year changed my life. I would work for hours on a poem the night before just to win the favoritism of my English teacher. Sometimes I would spend five minutes before class and write a makeshift poem and he would still thoroughly enjoy it. The students in the class cringed on occasion when I presented. I didn't anticipate a group of teenagers appreciating the raw nature of my writing but it didn't matter to me. Of course the kids in my class mainly comprised of AP math students. Math class was where I would imagine things. I tried to take my notes and pay attention but somehow my mind always drifted to the same thought patterns. Having been depressed for many years I had been no stranger to suicidal ideations. Finding the area of a rectangular prism would turn into a bloodbath on my bedroom floor. Pythagorean theorem would slowly transition to a gun in my mouth. Year after year I would fail math and nothing else. I think I enjoyed English and history because there was not just one answer to anything. Many courses of action formed a story or a social movement. My pain didn't have to be resolved by just one final answer. In English and history I had options. My suicide attempt this year was linked to a mathematical mindset. I was in pain and the only way out was to die. This year I was in a hospital for 3 months. I have managed to catch up on all of my work with the exception of math. I am a senior in high school and I won't walk the stage with my friends due to a failing math grade.