I'm not a Toy

A poem about a recent realtionship that I have happily ended.

 

[Start]
I love him
He says he loves me
I don't know what to think
I can hardly breathe
The sun sets down
As the nights pass by
I wonder to myself
Should I tell him goodbye?
I have nothing
Yet I have everything
I slide the knife down my wrist
I'm making a habit of it
I down the pills to let the pain pass by
Every night I curl up and cry
Inside my heart is aching pain
It's shuddering beat is making me insane
I whisper the words to the nothing beside me
"I love him, I hate him, my life is declining"
My last breathe is coming so near
That I wake every morning
My eyes full of tears
I can't live like this any longer
My lips are spread wide
Filled with hunger
Every kiss, every touch
I cherished them so much
I'm just your toy
You were never my boy
My life is filled with sorrow and hate
So I'm going to die, clear the slate
My last breathe is here
I call you once more
You answer "Hello"
Like I said before
I tell you goodbye
You bend over and cry
Those tears are not mine
I will never shine
You'll miss me dear boy
For I am no longer your toy
[End]
 

Reviews

[copperconan]

sometimes it's good to read of places we have been .. But I belileve I see a little more pain here then what i would like to live through.. you;ve done a fine job of escaping a nightmare and waking to tell of if..
wish you happiness from here on..

copperconan