A Mark

Written 10/20/14

I must be strong

And stay out of the dark

My skin doesn't deserve

To bear another mark

There's no damage on the outside

It stays within my soul

A secret...of shame

Before I lose control

I don't want to do it

But at the same time I do

It's a mark of honor

A badge of disgrace

To show what I've been through

It's all about me

All about my pain

I am so selfish

With little benefit to gain

I shouldn't feel like this

I shouldn't be this way

But it's really hard to pretend

Even when I'm not okay

I know the times will change

I 'll be happy once again

Until then I must keep myself

from putting a mark on my skin