Insanity

Written 6/5/13. I was in a mood

Always hiding
Always lying to yourself
Always trying to avoid the truth,
And hating yourself when you can't deny it

You tell yourself
That friends and family can never know
But your friends knew before you did
And you resented your blindness

But family
Would they be ashamed?
Are you willing to stay hidden
so they don't have to be?

for every step forward
There are two steps back
Every step forward brings release
Every step back brings comfort

They accept you
But you can't
Is it wrong?
I just don't know my own emotion

No, I want to be stronger
I need to fight
Don't I?
But I'm tired of fighting

I feel drained
There's no end to this madness
This civil war inside my head
Can't possibly have a simple ending

I'm going mad
Maybe I should be locked up
   Save me
    Someone save me from my
       Insanity

Author's Note

Please ignore grammar. I type this exactly as I hand write them

Reviews

[Lily Marie]

Oh my goodness
This is amazing! I have felt this all recently and you portrayed it perfectly!!!

[LostandAlone]

I like this. It's so different and shows so much emotion. Beautiful poem.