A Romantic Poem

To dance and sing without thinking about it,

To not have to for the smile playing on my lips.

To not have to choke out a laugh from deep within

my throat, but to have it come naturally.

To not have a single worry or depression binding me down.

To watch and wonder blissfully .

To understand that someone might care

To not always have to hide.

To not see the blood flowing from my

wrists anymore.

To feel like a soul found instead of lost,

To no longer feel the water pour down my face,
To feel a spark of warmth and light instead of

cold, dark waters to comfort me.

To not think of the blood as my only escape.

To feel like floating instead of drowning.

To want to cry when he sounds so sincere and honest,

To wonder how I could've possilby deserved to be so lucky.

To want to be me and show myself the world.

To not be scared to sleep, to dream.

To not feel alone in a room of thousands,

To wonder if being high ever felt this good
To actually if he finds someone else.

To actually fear losing him

To alwaysn want to be perfect for him.

To wish I  could see myself the way he says he does

To not be able to think straight and then not

care when someone points it out.

To wonder if he's just a dream and then get

scared I'll wake up at any moment

To be afraid he's gunna disappear

To want to be completely open and honest with him.

To want to say "I love you" but be afraid that one day

he wont say it back.

To only question my saintly becasue I think

he's real and that he's mine and no one else's.

To find it utterly impossible for someone as

amazing as him to even notice me.

To wonder if I'm dreaming when he says he loves me

To think I'd explode when he finally kissed me

To doubt he could possibly care as much as he says

To wonder how he can make me feel so alive when

I've always felt so dead

To have to remind my heart to beat.

To wonder if he honest knows I feel this way

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