queen bee and other bees

She just appeared out of nowhere, 

moving her body towards me, 

shaking those hips from one side to another, 

almost shaking to the rhytm of my fast beating heart. 

We exchanged looks, 

and that is how it all started.

Out of all the women I knew, 

I always remembered the first moment 

when we both shared an attentive glimpse 

into eachothers souls. 

Their eyes are like a gate into the soul, 

exposing the hardships, 

scars and burns that they lived, 

slight disfigurements and conditions in the heart, 

mental obstructions.

I wanted to get to know them 

and get aquainted with these demonic scars 

to somehow banish them from the existence 

of these poor fragile souls.

She never let me look into her soul, 

it proved a challenge for me 

to even let her consider that in any shape or form. 

She’s scared of men, 

and I’m new. 

Even though she knows how I work the trade.

But I gave up trying because 

falling and stumbling on the way hurts more, 

and I’ve got my own heartbeat to take care of. 

I just wish someone would help me and heal my raw heart. 

Time heals wounds, 

but the scars remain for life.

I also crave her, 

like an animal. 

Her lengthy skirts and covered up legs 

make me want to see more. 

I fell a fool again, 

a slave of the trade, 

a weak patient, 

a prisoner of lust.  

That’s just the way I am. 

Nothing’s going to change that.

I am a fiend, 

a freak, 

collector of bodies but it’s the soul I’m after. 

If you give me your story, 

I’ll write you a new one. 

I promise. 

Share your soul with me, 

let me look into your mind. 

I’m not using, 

only surviving, 

to block out the eternal darkness of my life.

I was torn, 

into pieces.

I can no longer love. 

Only the past can soothe my scar. 

Only she can feel my pain, 

so I need you now,

new character in the mist. 

To take my mind off the plague 

that I’ve been living with.

I’ll be anyone who you want me to be. 

If I would be myself, 

you would not exist. 

So let me look into your soul, 

and let me learn your ways, 

so I become yours, 

until the queen comes and I’ll change.

Reviews

[FateDictates]

and then what happened? did she return?

[plainme]

Good question, and unfortunately the answer isn't as good as the actual question. It's rather a yes and no for a few reasons. Thank you for reading.

[popourii]

You created a great mix of innocence and eroticism. Well done! Thank you for sharing :)

[plainme]

thanks a lot!

[Nick.B]

Very emotional and heartwarming piece you managed to create here, with a little taste of erotic, maybe? (in the first stanzas) then that feeling of unknown was there...great job, like it

[plainme]

Thank you very much!