The Window to My Soul

A Poem by pinksnowboots

I knew you once.

I knew your body,
I knew your smile,
I knew your walk,
I knew your voice,
I knew your laugh,
I knew your cry.

But no longer.

And now I walk through the shadowy world of my memories
lost in the depression of my "real" life
choosing to look through the shadows in my mind
to find something hidden within.

I've lost you, that I know.

I will never hold you in my arms again, not on this earth.
I will never see your smile in front of me unless I hold a picture.
I will never hear the tread of footsteps as you turn my way.
I will never hear the voice that my ears yearn to hear.
I will never hear your tinkling laughter, except in my dreams.
I will never comfort you while you cry, for now it is my turn to weep.

I will never forget you.

I walk through a dark forest, wondering where I am
and realizing that I no longer care.
I linger in this place for it has your essence in it
so the darkness is permeated with light.
The trees whisper your name, which tears at my heart.
I torture myself so because somehow, I can feel you within my soul.
In the rustling branches there is a window
where light shines from the place beyond.
I can see your face in this better land.
You no longer suffer, only I am hurt.
You look at me with desperation, crying out to see my pain.
I could hide and let you rest in peace, but I am too selfish.
A glance of you is too good a bait.
You will never fade from my memories
and we will meet someday in that land that I see
through the window to my soul.