...As I Stare At The Ceiling! Pt. 2

This feeling that I have is more than emotion,
it's higher than the sky and deeper than the ocean!
I can't shake it off, it just sits on my mind
and everytime I fast fo, it automatically rewinds.
I try to forget and most times I succeed,
but the feeling comes back like pestering weeds!
I don't want to feel this feeling anymore, leave me alone!!!
...but this feeling still returns like a boomerang thrown.
I thought I had killed it, but it somehow survived,
revived in my mind time after time!
Why must I suffer from someone else's decision?
Why does another's blindness affect MY vision?!
Oh...I see! As night becomes day and day becomes night,
so too must I know dark from light.
As I partake and break bread with her mistakes,
for the sake of my own, I've stomped the brakes. *screeeech*
Wait!...What did I do wrong to deserve this?
Must this feeling persist til I find true bliss?!
Or maybe...just maybe, this is true bliss!
It's the onesidedness that has me feeling like this!
She couldn't fathom the latter if I put it on a platter,
cause it seems I didn't even have a choice in the matter!
I can't help that I feel this way!
Lord knows cause I tell him when I kneel to pray!
They say a friend is someone who knows everything about you,
and likes you anyway!
...Well, I guess we're friends cause I know a lot,
but somehow it's okay.
They say it's plenty fish in the sea,
and that's true...I've had my share of fun playing Captain D!
Bait em', hook em', reel em', lob em',
just temporary solutions to a permanent problem!
But truth be told...I don't want it to end!
Still, this feeling takes over when I see my "friend".
And naw, I ain't from Chi-Town but I'm shy,
so if I ever feel this way again, I'll take advice from Shai.
I'm too fye to fight fires with fire!!!
So if this feeling retires, I'll hire another desire!!!
Higher and higher this feeling goes,
nobody knows the cons or the pros!
I guess I'll take it one day at a time,
and live life to the fullest with reason and rhyme!
This feeling seems so real, but I have my doubts,
s**t...challenges and obstacles give us something to think about!
If I'm stealing her real feelings then it must be fate,
and if her mind is a kitchen, then she gotta let it marinate!
Being me is such a wonderful feeling,
and this is what I think about NOW...as I stare at the ceiling!