you reap what you sow

If you dont feed your demons...they will feed on you...literally!!

The room is blood red, dark and quiet. My heart races too fast for me to grasp. My mind consumed by the evil thoughts. Its all lead to this. Sitting at a table surrounded by the demons i gave birth to. My skin burns to be torn open. The self inflicted feelings are worse than ever. I cant prolong the torture of not cutting myself anymore. The knife lays inches from my grasp. All i gotta do is reach out and grab it. I miss the feeling of the blade. The cold stinging sensation of my skin being pierced by the blade. My skin is like a infant needing to suckle on the blade. I hear the screeching of metal on metal. It sends shivers down my spin and brings a smile to my face. I feel the blood pumping and thumping against my skin just under the surface. The metal slicing is louder than ever and i hold my head in my hands and press down. I start to squeeze my head in. Wanting to split it open. To let the monster loose outta my head. But i realise there is no monster in my head. I am the monster. The banging gets louder... Louder... Louder! Louder!! And louder!!!! Then suddenly a bang on the table snaps me out of my state. I open my eyes. They all staring at me. Like a predator staring at its prey. Like a dog with a piece of meat. Im trapped. Yellow eyes slice into me as they stare into me. The demon at the head of the table picks up a knife. Its sharp as hell. Thick. I lick my lips as my eyes stay transfixed on the blade. The demon smirks and throws the knife to me. It lands in my lap. The message is clear. They know what im thinking. That i want to cut open my flesh and drink the sin that flows in my veins. I want nothing more than to slice my wrists open. Its what i deserve yet i cant reach it. My arms wont reach. I realise right then and there that i have no control over myself. They control me. My demons. This is their world. They pull the strings. They decide my fate. And i am nothing more than a puppet to them. No matter how much i try i cant reach the blade. The demon to my left laughs at me. I ask him why he is laughing. He abruptly stops and stares at me. You leans in close. Inches from my face. I smell the sulpher on his breathe. I want to gag at the scent of it but i cant. The smell is intoxicating and it fills the room. The demon says to me "We're hungry. We havent been fed. The time is long overdue". I stare at the demon. I now realise why im here. Im the... Suddenly arms wrap around me like snakes and lift me onto my feet. I squirm and yank to try and get free but i cant. I muster all my strength but i fail. I start to scream. Telling them without me they dont exist. They laugh. They all laugh at me. A demonic laughter. "Without us Phillip you are nothing. You cant live without us". I start swearing at them. A terrible pain slices into my shoulder. Pinning me down onto the table. I scream out in agony. I dont have time to get used to the pain when another slice cuts into my other shoulder and another into my one leg and then the other leg. Im pinned down on the table. Like a pig thats slaughtered and ready to be cut up and fed to the family at a dinner table. The blood pours out of my body like a fountain. The table turns crimson. The floors wash over with my blood. I jerk to try and get loose some how but it only brings more unimaginable pain and i stop. The demons stand around the table like its an alter. They bear thier teeth. They hungry. Hungry for the flesh of man. My flesh. I wont make it out alive. In my pain and my sorrow i gave birth to the hate the pain and the hurt which have become my inner demons. And now my demons will consume me. All my sanity long gone. The death i so crave has finally arrived. I do nothing but laugh. Its finally over. The tragedy of living has now come to pass. As i laugh i cough up the blood. It tastes devine. I spit blood into one of the demons faces and tell him "do it!". He wipes the blood off his face and shakes his head. He wraps his hand around my throat and squeezes. "This will not be over quickly" and before i can comprehend what that means my demons dive in and start devouring me. My flesh is pulled and ripped from my body. Pieces of guts and organs fall all around me. I hear the crunching of flesh being eaten. My flesh. I can do nothing but scream. The more i scream the more they laugh at me. I see my skin and my flesh on thier faces. Its covered all around thier mouth. My blood drips all over me. I see the look of pure satisfaction on thier faces. Ive never seen them more satisfied in my life. They lift thier talons up and bring them down and start slicing away at my skin and my flesh. I am being ripped open. I finally see that what you reap is what you sow. I gave birth to my demons and now im being killed by them. Devoured. I start loosing conciousness. I try screaming but only faint screaches come forth from my blood soaked mouth. My view starts dimming and the last thing i see is my demons, all reflections of me, Hidious reflections, smirking at me with flesh smouthered on thier faces as they bring their talons down on me and tear me apart.

Reviews

[Amoon109]

Sorry, is this fiction or no-fiction? because I feel it has to do with something from your past or not. I don't know But very detailed that's for sure.

[horror master]

Thank you for your feedback Amoon109 . I was in a very bad headspace so its in part fiction of course but explaining what I was experiencing

[Amoon109]

your welcome I hope ur okay. We all have bad experiences

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without paragraphs its easy to get lost