Real Me

My emotions change faster then 

The season in a year do

I felt like my life was about to end

For there was a type of hatred

That felt like evil

Suddenly I knew I had a war on my hands

I thought I could keep you at

Arms length from me

But you saw past that

You saw the invisible thorns wrapped around my black heart

For some reason you could see through my hatred

To my blood red tears

The only fear could bring

You fought against the rage

That would burn anyone or worse

You didn't care though

For the only thing you wanted was

To find the real me which was lost from the world

Even then you didn't stop

For you knew the pain went deeper

That the world never knew

Then suddenly hope shine through

And I felt a type of jealousy against you

For you knew so little about me

But that didn't stop you

For the deep down you knew I was only looking for a friend

Just that when I saw you with other people

I wondered why they were better then me

The envy seemed to rip open  old wounds

That I thought was long closed

What did the have that I didn't

After a while  I went back into the abyss

That I knew as home

The cold, harsh winters came back

The envy grew and grew

Until my heart was pitch black

I want you to leave me alone

For this had never happen until you come around

Yer you say that wasn't the real me speaking

You would not allow me to go

Instead you fought to bring back the old me

Just that when the monster saw what you were trying to do

He throw a red lava ball of rage toward you

But it didn't stop you

You were on a mission that you wouldn't be thrown off

Finally you found me in my own prison

That was colder then ice

As you got closer you saw the chins that bind me to the wall

I had given up all hope on life

Just that you hadn't given up hope on me

You took me off the wall just to see I was

covered in blood from head to toe

The only thing was the blood wasn't mine

For some reason I felt invisible to you

But you showed me differently

That I wasn't just another trouble soul

You found to help 

That I was special to you

Deep down you knew that I was just afraid

How could you told em not be be afraid

If you didn't understand it yourself

So one you understand it yourself

so once you understand my fears

You knew exactly how to help me out

Even when I thought it was impossible

You stood by me until you

Knew I was able to deal with it myself

Yet you didn't stop there

For you knew the truth about what I need

After going through so many harsh events

That I though was impossible to go through

Then before my own eyes I saw something

Was growing between us

At first I couldn't tell you what it was

It was not going to though at all

Suddenly I saw that was  growing between 

Us a type of friendship

I was so unsure if I really want to

Let the friendship blossom into a beautiful flower or not

I tried to keep this friendship on the down low

But it didn't work

For our friendship blossomed into a beautiful flower

That could not be contain in the box any longer 

Now our friendship is slowly growing into the new grounds

Don't  know what I would have made it this far

Thank you for all your help