a thin lineA Story by inthe-shallowsElias & Opheliaa thin line "haha..f**k," he says through his laughter. he is laughing uncontrollably with anger and wickedness, "f**k!f**k!f**k!f**k!f**k!" he's yelling now and pacing back and fourth with his hands running through his growing hair. "whats wrong?" i ask, hoping its not me. he stops pacing and looks up at me, with his jaw clenching and his eyes wild. he comes toward the end of the bed and kneels to the floor, not keeping his eyes off of me. "it's you. you're whats f*****g wrong." this doesn't sound like him at all. his voice is different and his eyes are dark. "you," he's coming onto the bed, closer to me, until we're face to face. "you're in here." he's pointing both of his fingers to my head. "you've got me all entangled in my thoughts... all jumbled up and nothings clear anymore... it was supposed to be simple. i was supposed to just avoid one feeling and now you've got me feeling multiple,.. too many. now i'm living in two worlds and i don't know which ones better and which one is worse. do i stay where all i do is feel me or do i go where i feel me and you?" he opens his eyes to me then closes them backup its too painful to even look at me. "what do you want, elias?" my voice disgusting him. "i want you gone! but not like you go away somewhere else. don't go away somewhere else cause i'll just come look for you. i won't be able to stand it. i want you gone like never here ever. like out of my goddamn world." i'm speechless. he's grabbing my neck now, holding it tight. i'm breathless. I'm not fighting him much, just trying to calm him down. i reach for his face, trying to get him to let go and lean into my palms. he does and i don't catch my breath because it is taken again when he kisses me. i can feel his grip around my body and the force he uses with his lips. its like there is a hard struggle of him hating me and loving me. he doesn't apologize, not even when he comes out of his trip. maybe he doesn't remember it or maybe he regrets not going through with it. © 2014 inthe-shallows |
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Added on October 31, 2014 Last Updated on October 31, 2014 Tags: depression, dark, suicidal, drugs, love Author
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