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memoir of what I experienced 10 years ago

When I entered the trailer, it felt different. I was going to get all of the rest of our things and never go back. I hadn't decided about him, that was another subject. All I knew at that moment was that I was done living out in that trailer.

Something felt strange. Off. So I prayed. And I was overcome with an urgent warning to get out of the trailer, now. To get only what I needed, and get out. So I did. I grabbed our clothes and a few other things, and fled. Something was in the air and it was oppressive and I was afraid.


The whole way home, as I drove, I thought about what I did when I first moved in. I waited till I had a minute alone, with nobody else there, and I went through the place and prayed, and asked God to bless it and if anything was dwelling there that was not of Him, to make it leave, so that my daughter and I could live in relative safety and peace. Don't ask why I do that. That's a whole different story, but trust me, it's worth doing.
So in this first prayer, I remember telling God, "whatever lives here, God, make it leave and unable to come back until I move out."

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

A solemn chapter. Hard to open change. To leave and begin again. I like the prayer and this chapter. Thank you for sharing the excellent chapter.
Coyote