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memoir of what I experienced 10 years ago

And so for the next 2 months, we got together every weekend and sometimes during the week. I had a job at a craft store at the time, and I went from innocent, energetic newly single mom with a good attitude to exhausted, hung over, and a compromised conscience from hell, all in about 3 weeks time. I never slept anymore.

We met in October. By December I was a wreck. I spent 2 months with this guy and by now I realized he might not be good for me. Not so sure I was good for him, either. It dawned on me that we were somewhat using each other. It dawned on me that neither of us were ready for a real relationship. It occured to me that when you meet a guy who just found out his wife was cheating, chances are, you're not #1 in his head, she is, and you're rebound-stuff. Or whatever. It occured to me that I had no idea what I was doing or what I was getting into. I realized that his temper was NOT interesting, after all. I found out what it was to be accused of things that I couldn't even begin to do. I was accused of this and that and found myself defending myself constantly. Finally, I decided, maybe this whole thing is headed nowhere fast, and maybe I should get out of it. For his sake as well as mine. I realized that my energies needed to go to more important things, such as, but not limited to, my job and my daughter.




But I couldn't break up just yet, cause New Year's Eve was here, and I wanted to have a good time, with no trouble and no bad memories and all that.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Hard to let go sometimes. I understand this chapter. I danced on the edge often. Most time I was lucky and fell landing on my feet. I like her thoughts and her desire to have some fun on New Year eve. Thank you for sharing the excellent chapter.
Coyote