Worthless Soul

I am broken, beaten and torn down

Not good for anyone I am around

You close your eyes and refused to see

All the damage that's inside of me

You think I'm good and worthy of you

I am decay and will only destroy you

The things in my life have taken their toll

Caused utter damage on my soul

Like the one who caused me to miss him for a year

Feeling lost and betrayed crying in endless tear

A gaping wound that never fully healed

An ugly scar that had to be concealed

The addiction that almost did me in

A fight I never thought I'd win

It did it's job and played its role

Slicing away more damage to this soul

Death will do what death does best

Putting this fractured soul to the test

I know I didn't recover too well

Because to this day tears do swell

A love that was twisted and tortured and used

Buy a psychopath it was beaten and bruised

Destroying trust for those to come

Thinking that all men are scum

Sickness rode in to slice and dice away

My insides being it's pray

Twice death almost did take me

To render this broken soul to be free

Started like a dream, ending like a nightmare

A demon of Satan could only compare

Destroying me deep down to the core

Afraid truth be told, I can never restore

So why do you want me, I'm such a mess

What about me could you possibly want to possess

I am so broken and used up

A lifetime mess you would have to clean up

You deserve someone worthy of you

Not someone who was not always true

I am damaged and not worth a damn

Your heart I'll take to the floor and slam

In the end you will finally see

I am not the woman who thought I could be

But regardless of all said, you still choose to stay

May you always I'll continue to pray!