Why Forgive

I want to forgive you, but I don’t know if it can be done

Because you have hurt me more than anyone

You took my heart and smashed it into bits

My emotions are having temper fits

It makes me mad that I ever trusted you

How cold and cruel you were inside I never knew

God how I wish I could turn love into hate

Or at least allow this love to abate

You bring in someone who is new

Without regard what it puts me through

With the exception I’ll be my best

Putting my true strength to the ultimate test

You sit here day in, day out wanting things to be fine

The pain it causes me, runs through to my spine

It’s crippling to see you dote on someone who’s not me

All I want to do is run away and flee

I have the love of a man whose feelings are true

Why do thoughts of you make me blue

You are a heartless snake, an evil soul

Someone I wrongly thought could make me whole

You have regard to feeling that are only yourself

I would have been smarter to have remained by myself

But OH NO, I opened locked chambers to you

You poured gasoline on them, burned them leaving your residue

You say I’m your friend

But leave me alone, broken, myself to mend

I want to be ok, I really do

Can that be done with still seeing you

I know it’s only going to get worse

Loving you is a deadly curse

I can’t think of you being with someone else, hell anyone

So I know what needs to be done

I have to cast you out of everything

Knowing the torturous pain it will bring

Rip you out of my heart, my home

Find the strength to just leave you alone