my last words for you

So many summers

I spent with you. 

I hope you enjoyed them too. 

I remember the Sunday afternoons

when you came to pick me up

in your shabby truck

it smelled like old food.

you were always a bit dirty,

and it got on my nerves.

I wonder if you will remember

our silly conversations,

our crazy attempts

to get drunk, though we never did. 

I will never forget your sweet touch

when you held me on your bed,

 and the way the summer sun

beat down on our bodies,

morphed into one.

My love,

my sweet. gentle love

I won't ever forget what you did to me.

And as much as I love our memories

I forced myself to love me more.

And when I kissed your cheek

and said goodbye,

for the last time,

I felt my insides shrivel up and die. 

How much I wish

I could just pick up my phone

and give in to you, let you

take me again under your

comforting wing

But I'm trying to figure out

how to move through the universe.

And it's f*****g hard

knowing you aren't thinking of me

and that 1,095 days meant nothing to you

I admit,

I hope we meet in the end.

If heaven is real, I hope to see you

when you're better, 

when we can embrace without any secrets

But never again 

will I let you hurt me. 

And just saying these last words to you,

makes me die a little. 

Reviews

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this is quite beautiful, and I have to admit, it made me a little teary. very nice.

[Moebia]

Thank you for the review; it means the world to me! I ever get reviews anymore LOL.

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haha I literally was just browsing through and I found your work, and I'm actually king of glad.