heart full of blood

looked into your brown eyes

felt this heart full of blood grow

I heard your voice 

and felt my ears smile--

yes, smile at the

mouth full of lies

that you spoke from. 

how many times 

I had succumbed 

to the beauty of your lure

like a mindless flounder

darting through the water

I found you,

and I thought you were mine,

because finders are keepers,

but I don't want to keep you.

you are the worst kind of poison

never in my life

had my eyes, full of water,

been so sad! 

never in my life,

have I been so quick

to detach--trying, as I am,

to not care. but I am a fool.

I let others hurt me, because

I am a masochistic sadist,

I want you to feel

how you made me feel,

so you can dart away

like a minnow in a tank,

only to come back when

you realize I was the best

thing to ever claim you. 

bring me the indirect punishment--

I have deserved it since I

came to this world.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Andy Lewis]

Oh, such meaning I find in this work. Its as if you have peered into the very pain of my own heart, for I know the pains of longing for the destruction on my own pride, the hurt brought on by the need for ssomething so terrible it harks at the very soul....very touching read on my behalfand very well eexpressed...thanks for sharing

[Moebia]

Thank you so much for the review Andy!