denial, refusal, a lack of desire

/used a rhyming dictionary. slightly personal, but not really/

as i thought i had forgotten

all those memories, so rotten

i was risen from my slumber

by a pain without a number

clutching chest and sweating cool

covered in a rancid pool

of what i believed to be as blood

but i was drowning in the mud

of my regrets and my remorses

and all the dreaded courses

that i could have maybe taken

but instead i was awaken

and returned to my delusion

of a beautiful illusion

that neither i nor no one else

is truly bad at heart

Author's Note

for a contest