i will sit and wait for you for as long as it takes you to come home

the first stage of grief is a temporary one, denial unfortunately, not everyone can bring themselves past it

i will sit and wait for you for as long as it takes you to come home

it could be a day, a week, a month, a year, a decade

i will continue to sit in this old, tired armchair so that i will be the first to see your face

i'll wake up our daughter, whispering exciting words of ecstacy into her young ear

i'll run to the door, opening it for you like i imagined i would every evening

i'll leap into your arms, and our daughter will curl around your legs, and we'll smile together

and i'll kiss you and touch you and feel you

and you'll kiss me and touch me and feel me

and every pain will abate and there'll be no more angst, just bliss

some have tried to tell me that you never will come home

it's been five years, they say

that blade tore into your flesh, they say

you saw him crumple to the ground, they say

you can't stay in denial for the rest of your life, they say

i don't know what any of them are talking about, so i gave up on attempting to decipher their words

you are alive, i think i would know if you were dead

i know you're coming home, you wouldn't leave me

i know that one of these days, you'll come knocking on our door

i've been slapped several times, people desperately telling me that i have to wake up

i'm completely awake, i tell them

they cry, looking so upset

i don't understand

what did i do to upset them?

they tell me that this is an unhealthy way to live

i'm so confused

what's unhealthy about my life? shouldn't a good wife spend her days waiting for her husband?

why do people think you're dead? why do they want to convince me that you're dead?

they talk about your "death" like i should know about it

they tell me i was there and that i saw it and that i cried

i can't remember such a thing

i truly can't

so i will wait

i will sit and wait for you as long as it takes you to come home

Author's Note

i really hope this counts as free verse poetry

Reviews

[Lubna]

Amazing poem. Very well imagined and beautifully written.

[a pas-tel tin/ted sur_reality]

Thank you so much! As a relatively unexperienced writer, that means a lot to me :)

[Miss Sharon]

You've written a very emotionally intense verse that in my opinion is indeed free verse poetry. For your emotional health I do hope this is a fictional write. ~Sharon

[a pas-tel tin/ted sur_reality]

Yeah, it's a fictional write, don't worry :) I'm glad you enjoyed it (in a way)