Not good enough

you can't expect anything from me
except disapointment
that's all i can do well
and you know it
i try as hard as i can
but i fail
i always will
because no matter what i do
it's never enough
i can try to gain your attention
your thoughts for a moment
i'll do all i can
just for a glance in my direction
i can hurt
i can scream
i try to be what you want of me
but i try in vain
because no matter what
i'm never enough
i've tried to match you
in as many ways as i can
i try to surpass you
which i know is a foolish task
for it can't be done
and i try to enhance myself
just to please you
but you laugh at what i do
it's never enough
you need more to me
but can't you see
the things i lack
i can never achieve
if your waiting for beauty
it wont spring upon me
and know all i do
i do it to impress you even though
it's never enough
my hands, they shake
my eyes, they twitch
my blood, it surges
through my veins
all for you
my soul, it aches
my heart, it breaks
my empty body's realizing
i can try and try and try but
it wont be enough
because it's never enough
i'm never enough

Reviews

[An owl on the moon]

This was such a painful write.. It took me back to a time in my life when I felt this way... feeling as If I could never be enough. You express this emotion so deeply and profoundly.

[Sweet_pale_cacophony]

*hugs
Self acceptance is the biggest lesson one can teach one self,it comes with a lot of effort but the sooner we learn the better it is...comparing ourselves with others and trying to surpass them can only lead to a lot of irreversible damage which can only be extremely hard to undo.
i can feel your angst and struggle like it was my own...well done.