Friends: Without them life would be nothing.

For my sisrendousin =D, and my Two besties. A class paper I had to do for extra credit. I choose the topic for friends.

 

   I have learned many things about my own life this year. I have learned who my true friends are. Friends are hard to find, especially best friends. For a while I just thought friends were just not meant for me. Maybe I was too hard to deal with, too hard to understand. So I distanced myself, I gave up and focused on the only thing I thought I was good at, Writing. For some reason distancing myself made someone curious though.

    I guess since this person had known me pretty well, Kessey. Since she had been in my all my classes for four years she noticed how I had suddenly changed. I could say I was talkative, hyper, and paid very little attention in class. Kessey came up to me one day, and asked me why I no longer laughed anymore. I said simply I cared about my grades more than friends this year. Which was a complete lie I was dying to have a best friend again. She did not take that as a good enough answer. And invited me over to her house. I accepted, but I'll admit I was scared, I had trusted her before, we had been off and on best friends. But I hated to fight, and my goal was to be mature and have no drama this year. So truthfully I just let her be, and stopped being her friend. When I was at her house, I laughed constantly I felt...alive. I wanted this to last a little bit longer. I doubted this though, because we had never maintained being best friends for more than a month without some interference. Kessey surprisingly never left my side, and we seemed to agree on most things together. Kessey was the reason and still is the reason I get up to go to school. I know when I get to school I will be tackled by a hyper friend, who couldn't stand being away from me for the night. It makes me smile it really does. Kessey is also very optimistic and humorous. She made me laugh all day, no matter what the situation was.

    One day Kessey invited me over to her house where I became best friends with her sister Kaylee. As I was in Kesseys room, I was writing at three o'clock in the morning and Kess had already fallen asleep leaving me bored out of my mind. I had already knew Kaylee, but she was quiet, I had no idea what she was like. Except for the constant stories Kess had told me, Kess was annoyed with her and envied Kaylee. Kess always said Kaylee was prettier, and was the good kid. Anyway that night Kaylee was still up and asked me what I was writing I told her about the Novel I had been working on for a while. She asked if she could read it, and I agreed into letting her. That night I learned a lot about Kaylee, we had the same interest and my favorite thing that's always good in a friendship. The same liking in music, she had great taste in music and even introduced me to one of my favorite bands now. Later I learned Kaylee was outgoing when she got comfortable with people. She was hilarious, and clever very hard to find. I also learned that Kaylee was extremely trustworthy.

 

    One of my greatest friends came in January. I had just gotten my laptop and I had installed IM. My brother helped me out and added my use to be cousin Chandler. I remember being excited because I hadn't talked to her in years. I was pretty certain that she thought I was lame. Seeing as she was 2 years and 1 month older than me. I had been taught that the older kids always thought the younger kids were below them in everything. So all I tried to do was make simple conversation, and being very polite. I don't know why I was so polite, I was so scared she would judge me. Like I said I was very mistrusting, I didn't want to have a friend that hated me. I couldn't help but to want to tell her everything though, I kept my mouth shut for a while though. She was extremely interesting to talk to, very humorous, and well I love to talk, I talk and I talk a lot. She was always listening, and she was quite outgoing too. So we never got annoyed by eachother talking non-stop. Pretty soon I was talking to her more and more. Telling her every aspect of my life, and she told me everything of hers. Though we were close I never thought she would think of me as a best friend. One day I said to her that it was weird, because we started off cousins and then turned into friends, and now were so close were like sisters. So then she started calling me her Sisrendousin. Sister/Friend/Cousin, I called her mine too. So I may have friends, and best friends, but she is my only sisrendousin. The only thing that was kind of strange though is that she lived so far away, and we had not seen eachother in the longest time. In fact we never even talked on the phone I never really thought anything of it though. Chan was very caring, and she was always willing to listen everytime I had a bad day she would make me laugh. One day I was so sick, I was afraid to sleep because my temperature was rising, and she called me. She stayed up with me until 6 A.M when I went to the hospital. I couldn't believe someone would stay up for me that late. In March over spring break I finally got to see her, and that day was one of the most memorable, exciting days of my life. It really makes me sad that she lives so far away, because If everyday was like that day I would be so happy like all the time. But I do think things happen for a reason, and maybe since she lives far away I am somehow closer to her. Chan has taught me something I never would have found out on my own. That I am in fact never alone.

 

A few months ago my parents got divorced, life was hectic, I lost some friends, I gained some logic. I figured out what really mattered. I have been  disappointed, depressed, sad, and full out sick of my life before, but I would have never made it without these three friends. I sometimes wonder if they know how much I appreciate them, I wonder why I don't show it. They are truly miracles, and I would me no where without them. They have made me happy and cared about me. I can only wish that I am returning the favor to them as well. The saying that goes Friends come and go but family is there forever always confused me. So instead of friends, I call these my sisters, the family that I got to choose. Hopefully these friends don't just come and go, and will be my family forever, because truly without them life would be nothing.
 

Reviews

[An owl on the moon]

This was a remarkable, insightful, lifting write, even with the dark times you write of friendships and hope. The one phrase that summed up this amazing piece was: "I am in fact never alone." Friendships are so amazing, teaching us about what is truly valuable in life and inspiring our hearts. Thank you for this write!