I remember as a child.

There is a cruel lesson that I learnt which is realized in this poem, take the time to ask your mum about her life before she was your mum, because you may find an interesting woman behind the mum.

I remember as a child, there mere thought of your death and I cried, as I grew older and we went our own way, I would still often dread the day, but I thought you would go on and on laughing, joking, carrying on, things I thought but didn’t say choke my very breath this day, death is such a twisted joke coz it makes you think the most, WHY didn’t I think that YESTERDAY???, but WE don’t live in YESTERDAY, we only live life for TODAY!!!, The reason for this poem will soon appear for today I lost something very dear, my greatest fear is in my head when I seen you on the bed, there I seen before my eyes my mum dead with no more cries, no more pain nor suffering , now its my turn to take your pain, a pain I must take in vain because it wont bring you back again, I take this pain anyway just to remind me of the day, the day you gave birth to me, such joy in your heart wont go away, it lives on in me and those you raised, and those they raise and on and on, YOU mum will live forever in me and mine, them and theirs, I remember as a child, the mere thought of your death and I cried, well mum I sit and cry tonight, my childhood fears have come to LIFE!!!This poem is dedicated to OUR mum, Susie Parsley, 24th September 1949 to 22nd June 2012, may God bless and keep you always and may God have mercy on your soul, YOUR son, Andy xxx.

Author's Note

I simply left this as I had wrote it the night I found my mum passed away, its an angry poem about the cruelty and finality of death, the fact that you cant even rewind time one single second to say the things you had a lifetime to say, may this sad angry poem change your future that you are not sitting there wishing "If only!!!", take that one second whilst you still have it, and you hold that woman who you have called mum all your life, you hold her tight and you tell her............!!

Reviews

[papaed]

a poignant, heart-felt write. I lost mine also about 18 months ago. I wrote the piece "Shine" to her just a few days before she passed. We always feel some grief at the loss of anyone, but a mother that was close to us, we can feel more deeply and for longer. I'm sorry that you have regrets, but that's quite common and it's good to put out the appeal for others to take the opportunity to use the present moment to lower the intensity of those regrets after it's no longer possible to speak with a lost one.
Peace.

[Susie Parsley]

Thank you for your kind words, if it wasnt this regret, I feel sure I would have thought of another, I have been meaning to write a poem about life, how it forces us to form these bonds with people, only to have to watch them grow old and leave us, I feel sure there is a lesson in there somewhere, there must be or what is the point in it all?, I have several ideas for poems all taken from my own view of life, I believe there is a connection with life and the cycle of life for a butterfly, maybe when we pass from this earth we simply emerge from the chrysalis like the caterpillar transforms into the butterfly, I have various extracts I will use, words from the bible like, "Ye must be born again to enter the kingdom of heaven", our first birth was when we emerged from the womb, nothing is impossible when you truly believe, Andy :-)