Hypocrite

I can't even begin to scratch the surface on the story of my mother but, this is a start.

you say you love me
but act the opposite
I open up to you
and you disregard it
you say I should want to do everything for you
because you gave me life
do you really think that's something I owe you?
cause i didn't choose to be born in the first place, right?
I told you my urges to take that life
that you so "generously" gifted me
how I had befriended a knife
to help ground me to reality
and you didn't even think twice
out of sight, out of mind
seems to be the motto you live by
cursed with a caretaker with narcissism
and childish mind