Once again...

I'm back at that place where i don't know how to feel

The place in my mind that at any moment, tears can spill

I keep feeling like I'm on the verge

but I keep holding this hurt

I don't know why I suddenly feel like this

sucked into despair, so quick

I just can't stop the feeling of it right below the surface

As I progress, the more it worsens,

But I can't let it break.

'Cause I'm doing better

I can't get back to that state,

where the only thing that quiets the intrusion,

is my own pain

It's hard, though, I have to try harder

But I can't help it if the healthy way to stay on the ground,

isn't working to silence the sound 

Still

I won't do it

Because I'm doing better

I have to be doing better.

Author's Note

I hope you can find comfort in the words.