Thoughts are Endless

just some thoughts i had

I know in your head, everything is fine

I know in your head, I am sound of mind

but after everything you've put me through,

just because I don't mention it, doesn't mean I've forgiven you

It just means I'm too tired to fight,

too tired to hear your excuses, 

too tired to cry

The way you talk doesn't convince me of your regret

Triggering words falling with your breath

Holding it in, I have to stay strong

If I don't, I'll fall apart, but am I wrong?

Isn't it the proper response in such a fucked situation?

But my humor and jokes are the expectation

It's too hard sometimes so I'll go quiet,

but not for too long, faking is the best way to hide it

Breaking down is not that unusual for me

I get triggered pretty easily

when I do I see myself as weak

Am I making this all a bigger deal than it needs to be?

Or does that question say I'm invalidating myself?

Second guessing every emotion, questioning if It's real

I don't know what to do because that cycle continues 

Never knowing if anything I feel or think is true

Or if I'm just acting...

Why would I be acting?

Author's Note

I made this during a hard time and put my thoughts into a poem. Hopefully those who can relate can find comfort in the words knowing they aren't alone.

Reviews

[Hafsa Inaam]

It is a great poem. I can feel your feelings in this poem. It is a great poem for the people who are trying to find emotional comfort.

[Frito]

This is an amazing piece. You were really able to put your thoughts into a poem successfully and it definitely reached me