anti existance

the man within my thoughts is more of a threat to me than i thought

 

i lose control over all my senses as he takes over and uses me as it sees fit

 

his cold, unwanted fingers touch my body

 

they trail cold fire within their wake

 

i feel his breath as those unwanted words reach my ears

 

he forces me to listen as i try to shut him out

 

he makes me do things i would otherwise find completely crazy

 

but i can't stop him because my body is within his shackles

 

how can i win against my anti existence?

 

how can i win against myself?

 

no matter how hard i try, his maliciousness returns from deep within me

 

i can never be rid of him and i could never accept him

 

how could i love someone that only hates and destroys?

 

why would i love something that makes me terrible?

 

he's draining my life and i'm losing time quickly

 

he's growing more and more and i'm fading away slowly

 

my existence will soon fade away

 

i see it in my... no, in his eyes