Nightmarer

The things that haunt us.

My punishment for making her write on a prompt is to write on a prompt myself…

What tortures you and awakes you at night? In recent nights (because recent nights have been different from past nights), I have found myself falling. I know. That is cliche. Everyone has heard it. Probably everyone has dreamt about falling. But it’s true. I am at some cliff side. Or maybe a building. Maybe I was already falling to begin with. I don’t remember the beginning of the dream. But I already start falling. And there is just fear. Pure fear. Not because of heights. Maybe because of the acceleration. But whatever it is, it scares the hell out of me. And it’s weird because that wasn’t what woke me up before…

Before, I had this repeating nightmare, where I was running down some spiral stone staircases, like I was in a guard tower for some castle. And slowly but surely, this woman, dressed in white with black hair, followed me down the stairs. I would try to scream, but I couldn’t. I would try to go faster, but I went slower. And then maybe she caught me, maybe she didn’t. But the last time I had that dream, I remember getting down to the bottom of the guard tower and  into this room filled with armored soldiers. And I turned around and knew that she was almost at the bottom too. But she stopped. And I yelled at her to go away. And it worked. I overcame it.

So with my current nightmares…there isn’t some force that I can overcome. I can’t just outrun gravity and yell at the world. I am just falling. And maybe I have to accept it…maybe I have to accept jumping up out of my bed at night. Or maybe, I will be able to face it. One day.