Raving

the drowning is back

just as I had known it

I'm confused angry

scared 

the fog 

the suffocation

is this a matter of lighting and special effects

so many people packed together

or the wicked projection of my own demons

I keep going that's the only way 

ignore

my head tells my heart

this is for me

me

me

its allowed to be about

me

it's coming back slowly

creeping up to me

fingers like eager flames

wrap around my hips

and we dance

I came here to dance

but not like this

not with you

he knows my head

its not right

but we keep going

faster

now slower

a passionless intensity

he grabs me tighter

warm body moving with mine

a closeness

that feels all too right

or is it wrong

vile hands want

and they touch

places that yearn

for human contact

caressing me 

up and down

making me his w***e

did he know I liked it

that no one else

wanted me like that

this girl so desperate

just for a taste of warmth