my visions of hel

my vision of hel
burns into my mind
turning it into grime
friends and family alike
are tortured before my eyes
bludgeoned and impaled
raped and killed
emotional torment
of which nothing could compare
the love and care i had once had before
are used against me more and more
the images of scorched bodies
slowly creep into my mind
as the comfort i so long for
disintegrate
i am hopeless, powerless
to stop the madness
the torture i have in hel
is not physical
but emotional
and it is twice as painful
than anything i have felt before