crippling paranoia

i have this thing with my relationship and haven't been able to clear my mind about it so i thought writing a poem about it would clear my head as well as produce a new one

crippling paranoia grips tight
as i try my hardest to fight
these corrupted thoughts infect my mind
all I want to do is hide
but the thoughts just seep in
taking control of every thought
till crippling paranoia starts to break me apart
making every action a desperate one
so it can avoid me getting hurt
but with all the good it tries to do
all it does is drive us further apart
the surreal existence i once knew
is getting torn apart
she is the light to my world
but if my crippling paranoia continues
it'll turn her into nothing more than a spark