A New Low

Just some poem catharsis

Does this problem come from within

When no matter the appearance

You don’t seem comfortable in any skin

Want to break free what to scream and shout

Staying still stagnate desperate to break out

I threw away money I threw away pride

All on stability and a chance to hide

Hide behind finance, paperwork, mundane chores

Is it false entitlement is this role just a bore?

I earned I say I desire I worked hard for this

Or did the responsibilities and false praise lead me a miss?

Often contemplate being enough contemplate if I’ve hit a wall

What if I’m not what if I fall short with my “all”

Promises shoved so far back and so far below

Starting to doubt their validity and all that I know

Feed the beast, feed it insecurity feed it lies

As I watch myself struggle discern, reach and cry

Maybe just maybe deep down I know this was never for me

I should have stayed at the bottom where I’m meant to be

Author's Note

Please ignore spelling and grammar issues please and thank you

Reviews

[Lisasview]

No one is meant to stay at the bottom Britteny... All of us have light and many of us are creative and sing out our voices in writing poetry.
Expression is what life is about.
Love and loss in our daily lives is always a challenge.
Just staying true to ones self is important.... not easy that is for sure ..but as we grow older we do grow wiser...
Lisa, now in Spain