True Friends

Personal Poem about being abandoned by close friends.

I gave you my time, my money my soul,

Life advice, and a shoulder to cry on if nothing more.

I gave you bits and pieces of the joy hidden within.

I gave you the good times the bad times, and you choose to give me nothing.

I have a bad habit of giving too much of myself away, so when you leave there isn’t much left.

I can’t understand how one day I mean the world, and the next I mean nothing more than a nameless face in a crowd.

I thought we were better than that, I thought you wouldn’t judge. But instead you shoved an ultimatum in my face, and when I couldn’t decide you left me in the dust.

I gave you no judgment, I accepted you for who you are, I guess you couldn’t do the same for me.

I hope in time you can see the damage that was done when you decided to abandon me.

One day here, the next day gone, now what the f**k am I supposed to do?

If you really wanted to help me you would’ve stuck around to see me through.

I gave everything away, it wasn’t a fair trade. Now I’m stuck here confused, left with nothing, and afraid.

Trust is something that should be earned, yet I give it freely. I guess that’s my problem, I regret this decision truly.

I gave away all my oxygen, and now I can’t breathe.

I was always there for you.

It was truly my mistake thinking you would be there for me. 

Reviews

[Suzanna]

I like the line, "it wasn't fair trade"
This is a familiar poem/journal entry. It's the type of poem you have to get out in order to get to the other stuff that could be written. The theme is universal (rejection and hurt), but what is unique about your situation that may be the new slant on the blame game? In most of these poems, the "I" is always the one who suffers most, is most perfect, and is most angry. The "you" is always the big taker, the one analyzed in the darkest light, pretty close to the devil, and stupid. Unfortunately the typical outcome is here too - blaming someone else for your misery, holding someone else accountable for your meeting your needs, and playing the victum.