MisanthropeA Story by paddy10tellysMedical Burnout. UK NHS orientated ...All atoms and light
came to be though the ‘big bang.’ First came the light, then came the atoms.
Then appeared the stars. From the stars came the elements that are we. We watch
the stars, so far away, yet the stars exist within us... Nearly fourteen billion
years later here you are. You see through eyes that each contain over a hundred
million photoreceptor cells. Each photoreceptor cell contains approximately one
hundred trillion atoms … there are ten times more atoms in each photoreceptor
cell in your eye than there are stars in the milky way galaxy! Those original atoms
are arranged, within you, to capture the energy released in the origin event.
Through your lived experience the universe observes reality vicariously. In
death it reclaims you. The universe is so big and spectacular, while you are so
small & insignificant. How ironic that it forever exists and yet you will
die and sometimes, perhaps, you long for your death? I know I do … aaarrgh, no!
I don’t mean that. I don’t! The clock on the wall is irresistible. I’m bewitched and
haunted by it. “Me Bollocks, Doc?” He looks like, ‘Bert’ from ‘Sesame
Street,’ yet he’s exposing his genitals. It isn’t right. “On Dear,” I say soothingly.
GP’s, like dogs which have been mistreated, can be wary of strangers. I quickly scan
the computer for any history of the bizarre, but I suspect he’s daft rather
than dangerous. “Sorry. I was lost in thought. What was that again?” I’m
captivated by his burlesque, trouserless, indignation. My sense of the
ridiculous is stimulated, but so is my survival instinct. He wails, “They’re on fire! You can have this crap back, I don’t want it!” The tube of cream that he’s lobbed onto my desk, ‘Efudix,’ is
a chemotherapeutic treatment normally applied to sun-damaged areas on the head
- a sort of dermatological scorched earth policy designed to burn away bits of
skin that might go cancerous. The area of the skin being treated becomes red,
blotchy and inflamed, followed by discomfort, skin erosion and eventually,
healing. It can be dramatic. “Why did you put it on your Scrotum?” I ask incredulously,
holding the tube of cream between my thumb and index finger like a dart. I stick
my tongue out and aim it at the bowling-ball sized comet dangling between his thighs.
I imagine the spectral extravaganza the distressed, wrinkly globe might produce
if viewed through an infra-red camera. It sways a little, just above the baggy,
stained underpants draped around his misshapen knees. Serpentine cords in
varicose-vein blue meander over pallid, marmoreal legs. His Penis is barely
visible. “Because that stand-in quack told me it was good stuff! It
worked okay on me scalp. He was hard to understand though. Foreign.” “The Locum didn’t tell you to apply this to your scrotum,” I say, as evenly as possible. “What were you attempting to treat?” “I dunno. You’re the Doctor.” Scrotum or head??? No!
Don’t throw it at him! Chuck it in the bin. “Indeed,” I reply, enthralled like Galileo by the beauty of
classical mechanics, revealed in the perfect parabolic arc taken by the tube of
cream traversing the malodorous consulting room atmosphere. Evolutionary
enhancements to the human shoulder muscles and tendons mean that elasticity is
stored until needed so that I have the capacity to propel an object at speeds
approaching ninety miles an hour. Chimpanzees might manage twenty miles an
hour, if seriously pissed off. The mental image of the tube of cream embedded
in his forehead is suddenly overwhelming … My aim is perfect. The chrome waste paper basket clanks with
the knell of hopes and dreams departed. I yawn. I sigh. I stretch like a man
with chorea. “Unfortunately, it’s not so great for fungal infections of the
groin …” My eyes roll upwards, flick right, flick left and then I give him my
best Gallic shrug. I check his facial expression. No response whatsoever … Silence. Incomprehension? Vacuousness? Why is he gawping at me like that? Maybe he’s gone deaf, or, had an absence attack? Is he, in fact, a Zombie? Oh my hours and days! He’s f*****g killing me! So, I give him my considered opinion plus the usual NHS-ordained
sign-posting, self-help and safety-netting advice. “Jock-itch! Scrot-rot! Like
athlete’s foot. Ring worm of the groin! Crotch-rot!” I grimace. The circulation to my shins ebbs
precariously as tetanic fingers dig into my thighs. Rubber-necked, eye-bulging
transmogrification has me again. “You need antifungal cream. You can buy it at
the Pharmacy! Look at the state of you! It looks like your ball-sack’s been
napalmed! You need the fire-brigade, not me!” Unexpectedly, inexplicably, an insanely, speeded-up version
of Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata #14 in C Minor, doppler-shifts through my ears.
Reality twists. The visual scene flickers and jerks. That’s weird. Why’s a TV advert tune invading my ears? Tinnitus! Tinnitus? No! It can’t be! For F**k’s sake! That’s all I need! I freeze. Then I twitch. I slap my head. I slap my ears and
wince as the self-inflicted tympanic trauma aggravates the cacaphonic insult. I
bang my forehead on my desk a few times. Silence again. Welcome grave-time
stillness ... I’m so relieved. I peel my face off the grainy Oak surface and
groan. The patient’s voluminous underpants have dropped and settled
like storm clouds over his bunions. Suddenly,
he lurches forward, pauses, totters backwards, stops and farts. He sits down awkwardly
on the corner of the shabby chair and crushes his scrotum. He squawks and
bounces like a man on a space-hopper. The surreal is revealed in awful comic
imagery as he grabs his ankles, crosses his legs and begins rocking to and fro.
The effect is striking, as if the Buddha’s been ‘kegged’ under the Bhodi tree. I
shudder and cough and then the maddening sonic paroxysm kicks off again, more
rudely, causing even worse consternation and panic. It hurts more than a piano
landing on my head. Something strange, oozes and ripples from my subconscious
and then explodes in a primitive, uninhibited, chain-reaction. What’s this now? Uncontrollable,
rhythmical, diaphragmatic contractions, heaving audibly through my thorax. Lacrimation.
Facial musculature in spasm. Laughter! I’m laughing. Pissing myself manically!
Why? I watch myself, watching him, watching me, out of control
but self-aware. It’s perversely enjoyable, as far as bizarre out of body
experiences go, but I have to regain equilibrium. OK, I’m being weird,
but you! You annoying Muppet! Remove your preposterous scrotum from my consulting
room right now before I give you some acupuncture with a nail-gun! Next time,
wind someone else up. Go to A&E, or flash the practice nurse. Leave me
alone! The laughter asphyxiates laboriously. I remuster my clinical
persona and authoritatively describe the management plan. “Bung this on it for
a week, or so. See me again if it doesn’t get better.” I look away as I hand
him the prescription. He pulls up his underpants, zips up his trousers and
edges towards the door. Nothing else needs to be said. All that remains to be
done is to find the air-freshener.
© 2014 paddy10tellysAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorpaddy10tellysLichfield, Staffs, United KingdomAboutUK NHS General Practitioner. Sports mad. Writes because it is therapeutic more.. |